Hello my dear readers. As you may have noticed, I’ve been gone for a while. Fortunately I had the opportunity to meet and speak with over 400 schoolteachers this past week and share the word about shame-free fitness and Health At Every Size for children. It was wonderful, engaging and fun. It was also a set of 7 grueling days with a very intense schedule. Nevertheless I planned to continue blogging while away.
Alas, the universe had a different plan. Shortly after I started at the conference, I reached for a piece of paper in my bag and something in the region of my lower back and right hip went completely out of whack. My friends at the conference insist that it makes a better story that I hurt myself busting a move, that the limbo initiated my lumbago or SOMETHING. But the truth is, I was sitting in a chair reaching for something in my bag, and I had that MOMENT. There’s a moment when time stops and that surprising pain comes and all you can think is “WHOOOOOOAAAAA, that can’t be good!”.
I managed to fulfill all my obligations at the conference and even have some fun. But sitting aggravated my pain the most and I simply couldn’t bring myself to blog last week. Sorry about that. But I thought I would take this moment to share a few thoughts with you about my back experience.
1. Sometimes poop occurs. It just does. I could make myself crazy wondering if it was tension or a posture problem or lack of sleep or the size of my hips or the tilt of the universe that caused that pain. But at the moment that the pain occurs I need not to focus on that. I just need to deal with it.
2. Dealing with it means that sometimes your plans have to change. When pain or a serious setback happens, it’s time to reorganize priorities. Some stuff will not get done. You can either triage and choose which things you can do, or you can try to do everything and end up able to do nothing. You wanna know how I know? Experience. So many times, I’ve been in denial about the fact that I can’t do everything. So many times I’ve ended up at that point, in pain, completely spent, where I can’t do anything. I really don’t want to do that any more.
3. Pain is a sign that something is out of whack. It could be posture. It could be schedule. It could simply mean something in my body isn’t working properly. As I am healing this week, I will start, very gently to figure out what is out of whack. I’ll see my doctor and start reviewing things in my life to see if I can figure it out. But I may have to accept that the discovery process may be long and challenging. And I may have to accept that I can never figure out exactly what caused this episode.
The good news is that hundreds of school teachers, councilors, administrators, and other employees were exposed to the notion of shame-free exercise and the Health At Every Size(TM) approach to wellness–many for the first time. So I’m going to take an aspirin and take my leave glad for a job well (if shakily) done.
Love, Jeanette DePatie, AKA The Fat Chick
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Jeanette — you’re living proof that listening to your body is ALWAYS the right thing to do. May you heal well and soon!