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Sunrise

Well, I certainly have been burning the midnight oil lately.  In fact, I’ve been burning it enough to see the dawn.  This morning, as I watched another glorious sunrise, I pondered what I would write about today.  And I decided I would write about new beginnings.

So often, when we fall down on things we feel we should do or want to do (like, ahem, writing a blog) we get embarrassed.  We aren’t sure what to say.  We shuffle our feet.  And fight with the urge to apologize.

Sometimes this embarrassment is so acute, we’re tempted to throw in the towel and say the heck with it.  Just give it up.  Just walk away.

But I think that’s a shame.  Because life gives us so many opportunities for new beginnings.  If there are an infinite number of points on any line, it stands to reason that there are an infinite number of places where we can begin as well as end.  There are an unlimited number of places where we can stumble and fall.  But directly adjacent to those places are other places where we can get up again. Every sunrise is a new beginning.  Every breath, every heartbeat is a renewal of who and what we are.

I think about the many, many times I’ve tried to change things.  I’ve tried to introduce the world to the completely renovated, whole-new me.  And it’s true.  Every time I meet the world I am a new me.  I think where I get into trouble is when I believe the new me will stay exactly as I presented it on the day I designated as “whole new me” day.  But the truth is that there is no momentary me that I can crystallize in amber as the one acceptable me from which my future I may not deviate.  Yes, I’m a whole new me until I’m a whole new me again, and again and again.  Hopefully, I’m learning.  Hopefully I’m getting stronger.  But long ago, I learned to see my life and my progress as a curving, squiggly, messy line that sometimes is camera ready and sometimes is not so much so.

Progress

Progress…

I’m waxing philosophical.  (Extreme sleep deprivation does that to me.)  But I’m also saying, here I am.  Whoops, sorry if you thought I had everything together.  Yeah, here I am making some of the same mistakes I made before, ‘cuz I’m, you know, human and stuff.  I’m so bummed if you sought a blog post from me and it wasn’t there.  But let’s pick up where we left off.  Let’s reconnect and laugh it off.  Let’s begin again.

Love,

Jeanette DePatie (AKA The Fat Chick)

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Spring Chicks

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The first day of spring was a while back.  But I have to admit, for me spring starts with Easter.  This is a time of year where I yearn for renewal.  I tend to take a look at my life, see what seems to be working, and figure out how to strengthen those things.  I also take a look at what isn’t working and throw those things out.  Oh, and this is the time of year that I start cleaning like a wild, rabid banshee.  But that’s a different story.

But I think this time of evaluation is so important.  I tend to get really busy and get really focused on finishing the next task on the list.  So it’s really easy for me to lose track of whether or not things should even be on the list.  The older I get, the better I understand that I just can’t do everything I want to do.  I have to prioritize.  I have to choose.

So while I sweep and polish and scrub and throw stuff out, I’m also spending time spring cleaning my life.  A few of this year’s revelations:

1.  Envy can help me figure out what I really want in my life that I am not getting.  But it can also sap me of my strength.  This year, I’d like to hold onto envy just long enough to give me a kick in the pants and help me revise my priorities to focus on getting what I want and then show envy the door.

2.  I also spend more time angry than is really useful.  This year, I’d like to hold onto anger just long enough figure out if it can attach to meaningful action. If there is an action to take I will take it.  Then I will take that anger and just dump it.

3.  I spend way too much time Plants vs. Zombies and Burger Shop 2.  I won’t link to these games because they are like crack cocaine for casual gamers.  Seriously.  This year, I’d like to figure out what scary things in my life I’m avoiding while making virtual burgers and blowing up the undead and then go do those things.

I think you can see, that this year, I feel I need to focus more on action.  I have so many ideas in my head that seem super cool.  But I’ll never really know if they are super cool or kinda stupid until I just go do them.

So how about you?  Got some “spring cleaning” you need to do in your life?  Wanna share?  I’d love to hear from you!  Because sharing time with you is one of my big priorities for 2013 as well.

Love,

The Fat Chick